Life can feel really long when you’re in it. My lovely wife and I have been blessed with two beautiful daughters. Looking at my girls, it’s impossible to imagine them growing up. But I know they will. And I want to take advantage of every moment I have with them and give it every ounce of effort I can. I don’t know how long I will live. Most people don’t. But I want to look back at my time on this earth and be confident that I spent it the best way I could.
Now that brings me to this site, I’ve been working on this website for WAY too long. There have been multiple versions and a lot of experimentation along the way. While I don’t consider that wasted time I really don’t have anything to show for it other than a bunch of files I will never use. I have a theory that you’re not really learning unless you challenge yourself and let yourself be vulnerable to criticism.
So although this site is not finished (and may never be), I have to push it live and start putting my focus where it needs to be. On the content. I love design, but all I’ve been doing is redecorating a blank page over and over. Enough. It’s time to focus my mind on making good work - writing, design or anything else. Then I can design this website around that work/content.
So what does this have to do with my family? Worrying about this site has been an unnecessary and trivial stress that I can do without. Time to push this boat out to sea (sink or swim) so I can spend more time creating things and being with the people I love. My life, my family and this website will be all the better for it.